The expedited thrill of my vivid passing, rekindling my soul. The candent pulse of modern anthems, illuminating my presence. The grandeur of the sway, supremacy, and control entrusted with the plastic-crusted metal, noting meanings to life.
I can't wait to drive, to step on the gas pedal, to cut off an old man, to splurge my pay check on getting lost. Another step, distancing myself from infancy and childhood, I take. So I say, 'Wind, gust through my hair! Sun, shine on my skin! Sky, rain on my parade!' I want to drive, I want to get lost in the city, in the farms.. ok maybe not the farms. But I want to go. I just hope, I won't suck.
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Saturday, December 18, 2010
Sunday, December 12, 2010
Dying
I'm holding it in. I'm holding it in like a kid holding in his pee during squats. I'm holding it in like a kid holding in his fart during lunges. I'm holding it in like a kid holding in his poop during a tennis match.
I feel like I'm about to go crazy. In psychology, it said kids often grow up to have the same temperant of their parents, a nature thing. I guess that true, but I depise the thought of having my mom's personality. I do notice that I have her OCD-like temperant. But lately, I've been trying extremely hard to hold it in, that anger. Like if I even let myself go even a little tiny bit, it'd be like pooping myself. And I believe there is progress in terms of how often I show/express my pissed-offness. But I feel like I'm suffocating. Like my church, my friends, my school, and more so my family is leaking carbon monoxide into my lungs. Maybe that's why I like to stay later after work is over.
I wish my boss would adopt me. I stood next to her, so torn at the thought that I couldn't talk to her more. At that moment I wanted to yell, "I love you, Joanna! Can you adopt me?" God, I love her! I'm not sure why. And I'm not sure why I'm so terrible to my own mother. I think we're both suffocating each other, but she doesn't know it. Each uttererance of her dry raspy voice is each brain cell that commits suicide in my brain. Each of my rude remarks is another migraine to her infinity of problems. She doesn't know it, but I'm killing her. She doesn't know it but I'm dying.
I feel like I'm about to go crazy. In psychology, it said kids often grow up to have the same temperant of their parents, a nature thing. I guess that true, but I depise the thought of having my mom's personality. I do notice that I have her OCD-like temperant. But lately, I've been trying extremely hard to hold it in, that anger. Like if I even let myself go even a little tiny bit, it'd be like pooping myself. And I believe there is progress in terms of how often I show/express my pissed-offness. But I feel like I'm suffocating. Like my church, my friends, my school, and more so my family is leaking carbon monoxide into my lungs. Maybe that's why I like to stay later after work is over.
I wish my boss would adopt me. I stood next to her, so torn at the thought that I couldn't talk to her more. At that moment I wanted to yell, "I love you, Joanna! Can you adopt me?" God, I love her! I'm not sure why. And I'm not sure why I'm so terrible to my own mother. I think we're both suffocating each other, but she doesn't know it. Each uttererance of her dry raspy voice is each brain cell that commits suicide in my brain. Each of my rude remarks is another migraine to her infinity of problems. She doesn't know it, but I'm killing her. She doesn't know it but I'm dying.
Monday, December 6, 2010
Sunday, December 5, 2010
Top Five Gifts for Your Significant Other
5. A two-year-membership to your local fitness club
Nothing says, "I love you, but I'd love you more without that greasy fat under your white juicy arm" more than this gift. Show your partner just how much you care and how observing you are of every little detail from how tight her/his clothes fit to how creepily deep his/her breaths take After all the thought of this gift, you don't want to appear cheap so go for memberships that last at least 2 years. Lastly, be sure to not get a membership at this club yourself. Let him/her know how much you believe in and support his/her commitment by not being there.
4. A Souvenir
A souvenir from your next trip to the gas station, that is. In the 21st century, people place more emphasis on the sentimental values of gifts. This gift idea has the perfect story. "You remember our first insert sentimentally significant event, yeah well I went back to that gas station we stopped at on the way there and I got you this." This bleeds romance.
3. A gift to share
Who says gifts are only meant for one person? Guys, get something for her that's really for you. Basketball Jersey? 50" tv? Sexy lingerie? Girls, you have the ultimate ability to deceive, nag, and argue for your points. For example, if he really cares about you, then you can buy yourself a pair of diamond earrings because they make you feel beautiful. And nothing should be more important to him than how you feel.
2. A Book
Yes, nothing beats the gift of knowledge. Talk about extravagance! Whoo-hoo~ You're going to need some pepper spray with that book, because you won't be able to get his/her hands off of you when s/he finds out. What's often a nice touch is to pick a very unique book that practically no one has heard of. You can usually find these special books with red marks or yellow stickers. They are often beneath a large sign labeled C-L-E-A-R-A-N-C-E. Tell your significant other that this book symbolizes her/him, because although it isn't very popular, it's worth a Nobel Prize to you.
1. $10 gift card to Office Max
..Need I say more?
Good Luck Everyone. Actually, you won't need luck with this list. You'll get all the love and recognition from your significant other as you deserve.
Nothing says, "I love you, but I'd love you more without that greasy fat under your white juicy arm" more than this gift. Show your partner just how much you care and how observing you are of every little detail from how tight her/his clothes fit to how creepily deep his/her breaths take After all the thought of this gift, you don't want to appear cheap so go for memberships that last at least 2 years. Lastly, be sure to not get a membership at this club yourself. Let him/her know how much you believe in and support his/her commitment by not being there.
4. A Souvenir
A souvenir from your next trip to the gas station, that is. In the 21st century, people place more emphasis on the sentimental values of gifts. This gift idea has the perfect story. "You remember our first insert sentimentally significant event, yeah well I went back to that gas station we stopped at on the way there and I got you this." This bleeds romance.
3. A gift to share
Who says gifts are only meant for one person? Guys, get something for her that's really for you. Basketball Jersey? 50" tv? Sexy lingerie? Girls, you have the ultimate ability to deceive, nag, and argue for your points. For example, if he really cares about you, then you can buy yourself a pair of diamond earrings because they make you feel beautiful. And nothing should be more important to him than how you feel.
2. A Book
Yes, nothing beats the gift of knowledge. Talk about extravagance! Whoo-hoo~ You're going to need some pepper spray with that book, because you won't be able to get his/her hands off of you when s/he finds out. What's often a nice touch is to pick a very unique book that practically no one has heard of. You can usually find these special books with red marks or yellow stickers. They are often beneath a large sign labeled C-L-E-A-R-A-N-C-E. Tell your significant other that this book symbolizes her/him, because although it isn't very popular, it's worth a Nobel Prize to you.
1. $10 gift card to Office Max
..Need I say more?
Good Luck Everyone. Actually, you won't need luck with this list. You'll get all the love and recognition from your significant other as you deserve.
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