Sometimes you let your mind day dream.
Financial stresses come and I entertain thoughts I'd never really do.. like..
maybe I should marry rich. Maybe I should meet that accountant my aunt has been bugging me about.
maybe I should leave ministry, go back to graduate school for a degree that earns much more. Like nursing or radiology or almost anything else
maybe time will stop. it will slow down. it will wait for me to catch up. it will let me take a time out, to pick up my pieces, to wipe off the dirt, to look at a motivational cat poster.
But none of those things is what is supposed to happen for me. I know that. I'm sure that accountant is a nice guy. I am sure nursing is a very fulfilling career. I am sure time is not biased towards anyone in particular. But sometimes you just let your mind day dream.
That's the false beauty of day dreams. They are only worthwhile for the moment you have them. Any longer and the truth is that the day dream takes place under fixed conditions that belongs to a false reality. Yes, there are financial stresses, but to assume any of the scenarios will make me happier is untrue. Sometimes mo' money mo' problems.
